Love is not a heart of life, its only a part of life...

On last semester break, I flew to my country, hoping for happiness and joyful moments with my family and friends... Somehow, my trip back to Maldives was planned with two missions... One was to spend a joyous time with my family and friends... The other main reason was to meet a girl who has always had a special place in my heart... With all my luck, I met her and things went as planned...

When I told my friends that I was going to meet her, nobody liked it... But I convinced them to believe that I wasn't going to start a relationship with her or to propose her... When I told them that I only want to talk to her, they all were some what okay with it... I didn't want her to see that I have some feelings to her... Though she knew it, I didn't want to talk to her on that topic... There were so many reasons that I can't explain here... And I can still taste the bitterness of my relationship with a girl and coz of that now I don't want to trust any girl and I can't do that...

But still I kept my feelings on one side and went to meet her... We met each other near one famous shop in Male'... Because it was just to see each other, we didn't wait long to talk... But two or three days later, we met in a restaurant... All she wanted was to share the story of her life... She almost told me everything about her life... The moment she told me the story, my heart broke into pieces... But still, I forced my self to keep the love I have to her in a side and offer a hand of friendship... She also wanted to have a good friendship with me... That's what she only wants...

Since that day, I kept thinking about her more... We were almost always connected through sms and calls... But, coz of some busy time she had, we lost connection for a week... Those days I was in my island with my family, but I started to miss her... I started thinking about her in the night when I go to sleep... I knew what was happening to me... Slowly what all my counselors (my buddies) kept telling started to happen... I got lost in her world... No matter how much I tried, I knew I cant stay away from her...

Later again, when she was free from her work, we started exchanging msgs... But unlike last time, i tried to keep distance. I took the decision again by thinking of the last relationship I had and coz of some other reasons... But still, the night before I came to sri lanka, I talked to her over the phone for a very long time... When the call ended, I was crying deep inside...

Now I rarely meet her, and most of the times I'm lost in her thoughts... No matter how hard I try not to think, I think about her... I always want to meet her and keep waiting for a time when she comes online...

As far as I know, she will know how I feel about her... Though I didn't want to show it to her, I told her of it... because of that, both of us want to talk as friends... Though I cant make her mine, I will always try to remain as her friend... For now, that's also enough for me... I wish her happiness always....

New heights... Wat will be new?

Yesterday, for the first time in Maldives, a multiparty election was held... From it's results, we got a very positive signal that from the horizon, we have started to see the sun is about to set after almost shining over Maldives for 30 years... if Maldivians really want a good change, we will succeed insha allah... But Allah only knows when it's time for a change. what we can only do is to work hard to bring the change we want...

- a president who didn't realise what human rights is for the past 30 years, he won't realize it in 5 years even though he reach new heights, wud he?...

- In the past 30 years, when he didn't know what a constitution is and how to follow it, he cant do that in the new heights he reach in the next five years...

- for 30 years, he used religion as a shield to protect himself against political issues, and confused the public about the revelation of quran to secure his seat as a president and to rule over people...

- for the past 30 years, when he kept spending the money of the government budget to satisfy his friends and relatives, he can reach new heights, but it wont stop...

- in a muslim nation where drug is prohibited, can he stop the drug deals in five years when he couldnt stop it when is started? he destroyed our young generation. can he bring them back and make them useful for our nation?...

- In the next five years can he build houses for the people who lost their houses in 2004 and give them a happy life. Can he do it while he couldnt do it from the moment the money from foreign countries started to pour over our nation to help the victims?...

i dont want someone who appears like a president, or someone who looks religious or special or fair... I dont want a person who knows about religion but who never followed its rules and kept watching when the Maldives took over the western style... i want someone who realise that all Maldivians are equal and they also deserve to get their rights... I want a president who can give the human rights equally among the people. someonoe who can listen to our voice...

So again, my vote for anni is for a change i wanted to see for the last few years...