Walking on a desert with no roads..

The sun disappeared into the horizon after performing its duty for the day... But I was lost and amazed at the new sun I was seeing today... Yes! that's you! That was the day I first saw you... Even though it was years back, I still have the memories of that day like it was yesterday... You were there staring at me at the window of your house which was under construction then... You appeared to be an angel staring at me wearing that orange shalwar... At the first glance at you, you stole my heart... The way that you smiled at me cannot be compared to anything in this world. Even now, if i think about that smile, I get goosebumps. It was so magical...

After days of watching each other, I met you and we talked... but that was just temporary... I couldn't do anything for you...

In this short life of mine, I met many girls other than you... Beautiful girls too. We met and we talked... We had great times together... But from all those faces, you are the only face that never left my mind...You are the only face I ever want to see... Your voice is the only voice I want to hear... Today I can feel what really is true love... It has been a long time since we met, but still my heart is the same for you as the first day we met first...

Even though this is true love, this journey doesn't have a destination... It's like sailing on a rough sea which I dont know the depth of it... It's like walking on a desert with no roads... So now there is no other choice then burying my "True Love"...

Pic taken from deviantart and Edited by me...

You are still my Dream Girl...

I am really sorry to break our friendship.. I did that for you as well as for me.. You r always special and will be forever.. Now i know that i really love you.. But i didn't want to get in between your prince and you.. I know you love him a lot.. Even though your life is not happy with him n your life is a big mess with him..

I talked to u on your request.. But I listened you cause i wanted to.. I wanted to know how your life was and all about you.. When i knew abt you and your life with your prince, i was really sad.. I cried, i asked my friends for a solution for your life.. I think about your life a lot.. There wont be a day I never think about you and your life after i knew about it.

But later you couldn't give me a chance for me to know about you.. You closed all the doors.. I know that was not your fault neither it was mine.. It should be that way..

The more the days pass by without hearing your voice, without getting an email, without getting any sms, I tried to think about you more... You won't even realise how much i love you and i didn't want to tell you.. I only wanted you to be happy with the one you love.. So thinking about all my close friends' advices, i thought i was not doing the right thing..

But still you r my dream girl... N i'm really Sorry n wish you all the best.. Hope one day your prince will think about you and make you happy or you will find some other way to live a happy life with a prince... Wish you all the best...

After a long long time i thought to update my blog on some peoples requests...

Pic taken from deviantart and Edited by me...

For a very Special Friend of Mine...

Today I got a mail from someone very special.. I didn't have any communication with her for more than 2 months... I was really happy and excited that I heard from her today... But my excitement started fading away as I kept reading the mail... When I was done reading, my eyes were in tears, coz she wrote about the life she is living now...

Hey dear, remember this, if you need any help from me, as long as my heart beats, I will try my best... I will do anything for you... When ever you are sad, remember that i'm hear for you... I'm here to help you out... But for the present situation I cant do anything other than giving some advice... So don't worry about that... Think and think whats best for you... And take an action... Your decidion should be whats best for you... Just for once, stop thinking about others. You also have some rights. Your life is only on your hand...What ever your decision is, it will shape your future, either for good or for bad!...
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A Journey To A New World...

public class MyNewWorld
{
       public static void main(String args[])
       {
       System.out.println("I was really nervous today");
       System.out.println("Coz i didnt know what She would tell");
       System.out.println("And how she would react");
       System.out.println("Last time she didnt accept my proposal");
       System.out.println("But luckly she accepted today");
       System.out.println("So all I have to say is...");
       System.out.println("Thank you DARLING :D");
       System.out.println("Its the begining for my success");
       System.out.println("I have to do a lot and");
       System.out.println("I have to think a lot too");
       System.out.println("And this time,");
       System.out.println("I wont give any chance for any viruses");
       System.out.println("To infect my dreams");
       System.out.println("Instead I will always use the best anti-virus");
       System.out.println("Insha allah");
       System.out.println("I wont give up anything this time");
       System.out.println("And I will fight every obstacle that comes my way");
       System.out.println("No one can break my strength");
       System.out.println("I have the faith in Allah");
       System.out.println("This time I will reach high for my dreams..");
       System.out.println("And I will end my journey with joy and success..");
       System.out.println("Inshaa Allah");
       }
}
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Flash back of 2008

Here goes my first post for 2009... So I'm gonna have a flash back of 2008...

When the year started I was having a girlfriend... She was in Malaysia for her higher studies... She went there on 3rd or 4th of January 2008.. I cant remember the exact date... After she left I met her twice through MSN... I didn't have her contact no... On 19th of january she replied to a mail which I sent her... Click here to see what was in the mail...

February 06th I took a decision on her... Click here to get more details...

February 23rd was the day it turned to one year after my Grandma passed away...

20th of April I had an ear surgery done at EYE & ENT Golden Key Hospital.. Click here to read my previous post about it...

June 1st or 2nd again I started a relationship with the girl who broke up with me on January 2008... I forgave her and she did that too... She was on her vacation in Maldives... After 5 Months we were really happily talking as usual again... Made lots of promises and had dreams together... I was really happy again...

Almost after 1 and half months she went back to Malaysia... That was in July 2008... Again it seemed as if the history repeated itself... I couldn't contact her... and this time she sent me a msg saying she doesn't want to be with me and she wants to be with her ex-boy friend who is also Studying in Malaysia...

The same month, following a heart break, i had a coincidence which made my heart full of joy. I met this girl who I always wanted to talk… I met her on chat... We had a good time chatting and when i told her i was goin to fly to Maldives, She invited me for a coffee. I accepted her invitation coz i wanted to meet her really badly...

August 20th I flew back to Maldives for my holidays.. and I met my dream girl.. She told me everything about her life.. we were talking as friend.. But I was sure that inside my heart there was something else… more than frindship.. But she has a prince.. At that time he was not with her.. So she talked to me a lot.. But later I tried to keep some distance with her.. Even she did that too… And now we don't have any conncetion again. As usual.. I guess maybe her princes is with her now... If she thought I am a friend why cant she talk to me now??? Still im in the confusion..

September 16th i flew back to Sri Lanka...

October 8th was a remarkable day as it was the first time in the history of Maldives a multi party election was held and the first time we got the chance to vote for the president of our choice... The one I voted got the second highest number of votes and the voting went for a second round...

October 28th was the day the second election was held... This time also i went to vote for the person who brought a big twist to the history of the Maldives... I came home after voting and waited at home for the results...

October 29th was the day my heart shattered in joy to see the results of the votes... The one I voted got more than 52% of votes and got to be the 4th president to end the dictatorship which lasted for 30 years in Maldives... This presidential election was the first time ever I voted...

After October I had a good time as a new house mate arrived... We went out very often those days until end of November when our house started to get crowded from my best friends family members and my family who came to Sri Lanka during the School Holidays...

In brief, 2008 was a year i had to face so many difficulties, sadness and lots of hard time... But yet, I learnt from the worst and survived for the best...

The year ended with a moral: Dont fall into girls too easily and dont be so positive about them... Be negative and expect for the worst as well... All that glitters is not gold ;)...

Love is not a heart of life, its only a part of life...

On last semester break, I flew to my country, hoping for happiness and joyful moments with my family and friends... Somehow, my trip back to Maldives was planned with two missions... One was to spend a joyous time with my family and friends... The other main reason was to meet a girl who has always had a special place in my heart... With all my luck, I met her and things went as planned...

When I told my friends that I was going to meet her, nobody liked it... But I convinced them to believe that I wasn't going to start a relationship with her or to propose her... When I told them that I only want to talk to her, they all were some what okay with it... I didn't want her to see that I have some feelings to her... Though she knew it, I didn't want to talk to her on that topic... There were so many reasons that I can't explain here... And I can still taste the bitterness of my relationship with a girl and coz of that now I don't want to trust any girl and I can't do that...

But still I kept my feelings on one side and went to meet her... We met each other near one famous shop in Male'... Because it was just to see each other, we didn't wait long to talk... But two or three days later, we met in a restaurant... All she wanted was to share the story of her life... She almost told me everything about her life... The moment she told me the story, my heart broke into pieces... But still, I forced my self to keep the love I have to her in a side and offer a hand of friendship... She also wanted to have a good friendship with me... That's what she only wants...

Since that day, I kept thinking about her more... We were almost always connected through sms and calls... But, coz of some busy time she had, we lost connection for a week... Those days I was in my island with my family, but I started to miss her... I started thinking about her in the night when I go to sleep... I knew what was happening to me... Slowly what all my counselors (my buddies) kept telling started to happen... I got lost in her world... No matter how much I tried, I knew I cant stay away from her...

Later again, when she was free from her work, we started exchanging msgs... But unlike last time, i tried to keep distance. I took the decision again by thinking of the last relationship I had and coz of some other reasons... But still, the night before I came to sri lanka, I talked to her over the phone for a very long time... When the call ended, I was crying deep inside...

Now I rarely meet her, and most of the times I'm lost in her thoughts... No matter how hard I try not to think, I think about her... I always want to meet her and keep waiting for a time when she comes online...

As far as I know, she will know how I feel about her... Though I didn't want to show it to her, I told her of it... because of that, both of us want to talk as friends... Though I cant make her mine, I will always try to remain as her friend... For now, that's also enough for me... I wish her happiness always....

New heights... Wat will be new?

Yesterday, for the first time in Maldives, a multiparty election was held... From it's results, we got a very positive signal that from the horizon, we have started to see the sun is about to set after almost shining over Maldives for 30 years... if Maldivians really want a good change, we will succeed insha allah... But Allah only knows when it's time for a change. what we can only do is to work hard to bring the change we want...

- a president who didn't realise what human rights is for the past 30 years, he won't realize it in 5 years even though he reach new heights, wud he?...

- In the past 30 years, when he didn't know what a constitution is and how to follow it, he cant do that in the new heights he reach in the next five years...

- for 30 years, he used religion as a shield to protect himself against political issues, and confused the public about the revelation of quran to secure his seat as a president and to rule over people...

- for the past 30 years, when he kept spending the money of the government budget to satisfy his friends and relatives, he can reach new heights, but it wont stop...

- in a muslim nation where drug is prohibited, can he stop the drug deals in five years when he couldnt stop it when is started? he destroyed our young generation. can he bring them back and make them useful for our nation?...

- In the next five years can he build houses for the people who lost their houses in 2004 and give them a happy life. Can he do it while he couldnt do it from the moment the money from foreign countries started to pour over our nation to help the victims?...

i dont want someone who appears like a president, or someone who looks religious or special or fair... I dont want a person who knows about religion but who never followed its rules and kept watching when the Maldives took over the western style... i want someone who realise that all Maldivians are equal and they also deserve to get their rights... I want a president who can give the human rights equally among the people. someonoe who can listen to our voice...

So again, my vote for anni is for a change i wanted to see for the last few years...

Exams over... getting ready to go to the sunny side of life....

At last its over for this sem.. and nw its holidays.. welll almost after one year am gonna go to my home... yeeppeee gonna go to the sunny side of life on 20th of this month....

Cant wait to seee my nieces, nephews and cousins and all my family members.... After one year I'm gonna see them inshaa allah..

I hope this trip will be a memorable trip for me..Coz this time, i might meet very special 2 people in my life... One is a girl who was trying to meet me for last 7 months and finally she met me from msn on july last week and we had a really nice talk that night..But later that night i couldn't get much time to talk her coz of my studies n stuff... But will meet her in person this time inshaa allah :D The other one is someone who I always wanted to talk and meet.. Bt i coudnt get any chance yet... hoping my dreams are gonna come true this time inshaa allah.... dreaming too much is nt goood right???

The other thing is this time i have to face a big prob coz i know i have to face many questions from my family, my friends and some other people who knows me... Thats about my blind relationship which ended for good recently...the worst relationship i ever had... What do I have to do?? Do I have a right for talking about MY LIFE..??? Should I tell them the truth..? As I know, I have full rights to tell them about MY LIFE..
Pics taken by me..

Happy B'day

Today is Zayan kokko's b'day. He is the cousin I love most... Today is Maai's b'day too... Maai is a cousin of Uniqu3 Graph!X. Wish both of them a very happy b'day...

What was it???

I have no idea how to start this... really i dunno.. I just wanna share little abt my feelings again... Just cant keep it with only me... Last night was a really very very happy night for me.. I will never forget last night.. Something really nice happened to me... I even dunno how to explain my feelings.. I thought i was in a dream, but never mind if it was a dream or not, I was really happy even if it was just for that once... Donno it's a good or bad sign for me.. Dunno hw things will turn out tommorrow... Last nights incident was more than i cud ask for. That's what i know... It's very complicated and i prefer keeping it only with me, hoping that this dream of mine won't turn into a nightmare... So Sorry fellow readers to keep u in confusion... :D
Pic taken from deviantart

Waiting for you....

It's been days since i have updated my blog last. Getting my girl friend back after 4 months brought a big change to my life. It was like going back in time and making things right. We only get one chance to find the true love. But i got a second chance to find it again, and I'm never going to let it go.

Things are whole lot better and different for me now. instead of worrying about updating the blog, i was always hoping for a call from my angel. My mobile phone is the dearest thing to me now. Coz now, she calls me very often, and we are in touch more than ever.. it's like the distance is not that distant anymore.

That's y I don't come online very often these days. But then again, the time is coming for me to return back to use to have online chats. Coz she's flying back and i won't hear her sweet voice for few months again. Last month was a happy time for me, we talked over the phone and it was like being there with her. Sad thing is that, it's almost going to be an year, without even seeing my angel. I really wanted to meet you darling, and if not for now, i can't wait to see you this December. INSHA ALLAH…

I want you to know that i really love you and my life will be incomplete without you. I need you more than ever and you're everything for me now. We had dreams together, we planned a lot of things for our life, hope that will all come true and we will be together, forever...

I'm gonna miss you dear, but i will wait and I'll be patient.
Pic taken from deviantart

Finally its Ours....

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Pic designed by me.

Congrtzzz Maldivian National Team....

Yesterday Maldives beat THE LIONS on their own land and won the match... dhagadey gave the pass and oppo scored the goal on the 27th minute of the second half. it was a really nice goal.. It was my first time in a stadium with such a big crowd, and i really wanted to see how the supporters reacts when the Maldives score a goal.. But at when Maldives scored, i couldn't look for the supporters, i myself was full of joy and felt proud of our National team... I didn't know what i did that time.. Coz everyone was shouting and screaming...

We went in a crowd of 13 people to the ground around 6:00PM. Match started at 7:30PM.. Some Maldivians went to the ground by a bus from Maldives High Commission.. We were wearing red t-shirt as all the other Maldivians with head bands and little face faints... I can't exactly say how many Maldivians were there, but it must be more than 1500, i guess. It was no different than being in our own country. I'm proud of our National team and of course all the supporters for the support they gave.

Final match will be held at Sugathadasa Staduim on 14th June. This time it's Ours.. Insha allah...

Pics taken by Iboo.

Happy b'day Dheekko...

Btw happy b'day to lallu,Juwey and Sanjay tooo...

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y ...

Yes or no?

White snow, again will change colors.
As in a dream, time will change masks.
And I will tell you, I love as I breathe.
And I want to know the answer - yes or no?

When we fly in the skies, then we will realise
That love is different, love is like a dream.
Hence it will be so, let nobody judge
Those who are in love, and love someone.

I wish for keys of heaven,
So i could run towards you to the edge,
To understand everything, to forgive everything,
To suddenly change everything,
And to say forever - yes or no.

Poet: unknown
Pic taken from deviantart

Our life is full of ups and downs...

Almost 5 months back my girlfriend ended our relationship. i was really depressed and was left behind with so many un-answered questions.

Our life is full of ups and downs... we never know what's going to happen tomorrow. I trust in Allah and i beleive that if we really want something from the bottom of our heart and try for it, we will get it. I listened to my heart and finally i managed to contact her tonight. I wanted some answers from her, now that we have talked tonight, we learnt a little more about each other once more. I forgive her for what she did unknowingly, and i apologise for what she had to go through because of me.

If she is ready to start a new relationship with me again, I'll try to make it a beautiful one. One that's more precious than the pearls and shining brighter than the stars...

Pic taken from deviantart

My first suregry was a success...

Its been more than one month for my surgery..And after looong time of suffering with the ear, only day before yesterday (29th Apriil) Doctor told me that my surgery was a 100% success.. Alhamdu lillah...

Now i don't have to worry about dust going inside the ear when im out. or water going while i bath.Yesterday i cut my hair after looong time.. Now i can fly, swim and can lift heavy things.. Yaahooo... It's like being free once again :D

Thnx for Dr.Sobitha.. The surgeon who did the surgery... He was the friendly, caring, nicest, coolest and funniest doc i have ever met (as if i know many other docs :P )... Thnx for my family and all my friends...

Pic taken from deviantart

What am I thinking to do now??? Why am I thinking to do that now???

"Yeah from today I took my final decision… I won't wait for her and waste my precious time as i wasted two whole years. For the first time, i want to live my life for me. I also have a right to choose what's good for me and what's not. Now I realize that I was too easy to play with. I don't want it to be that way. Not anymore!" That's wat i said 4 months ago...

But now my heart has turned over the other way… Don't ask me WHY.. Coz even I don't know why I am thinking abt her and wanting to talk her… But I know now again I really want her.. I believe what others say too.. I talked some ppl abt this and they all said same thing.. She betrayed me for nothing and now again I am trying to get her.. So same thing might happen later again.. How is it possible to trust her that she won't do it.. She must think that i'm also of some value & i'm not a toy to throw away without showing any valid reason.. Most of them tell me, if she comes to me and tell me why she did it or if she apologize then it's ok to be with her.. Coz I apologized for what I did to her.. Yeah I believe that but what to do.. I controlled my heart for four months but now ….. I always tell everyone (my friends) "if once a girl/boy betrays you, don't even think of going back to her/him. You should have some value in front of them. There are lots of girls/boys out there." bt when it comes to me what happened to me??? Sometimes my heart says to do that n sometimes it says not to do this…..

Tomorrow she will finish her first semester exam.. for the past 4 months I never tried to talk her, not coz I didn't want to.. But coz of her studies I didn't want to disturb her… I still love her and I need her… I know still my family wants her back..

My heart says talk to her and try to get her… So do I have to call her?? Will she talk to me?? Am I going to do a right thing?? Why am I thinking to do this??? If I don't try to talk her, can I get her?? Telling that's her fault, she betrayed me and staying like this, can I get her??? Without trying can anyone reach their goal??? If I talk her first, am I a looser??

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Thnx for everyone who wished me

Yesterday was my b'day and i had a wonderful day... for me it was a normal day till i got a little surprise... It was from my best friend and his two brothers... well, before that i took some neigbour kids to Mc donald's.. it was a wonderful time with those kids.. they had so much fun.. i won't forget how udhula (the smallest one of them) ate the chips and the ice cream...

I couldn't take out my neighbor out yesterday. I promised him that i'll give him a treat too.. he doesn't like to go Mc, KFC, dine more or pizza hut.. So i was planning to go to have some different flavored ice cream.. That's for his request.. So i thought to take my best friends two bros with him, coz then only we can make fun..But he didn't get time to go there so we postponed it for today or tomorrow..

Anyways thnx for everyone who wished me by sms, calls, Ek, face book, Msn, this blog and in person.. A very very big thanx goes to my best friend and his two brothers...

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